Sahara

My head's on the ground again
I'm bleeding on the sand, but I don't feel a thing
I start with a count to ten
As I pull myself up slowly and I take it in

Lost in this desert and I'm looking for freedom
A small oasis or a moment of breathing
I'm still alive but I can hear my body screaming
A broken core despite its pieces interweaving

Scorch the Sun, I'm burnin'
Freezing nights, I'm learnin' to fill my cup of emptiness
With tired limbs and bloody fists
On my own I'll make it
Blood and bone, I'll take it
By fighting the coldness inside
I'm leaving it all to the side
I'm learning to swallow my pride
I'm burnin'

I'm burnin'

I'm burnin'

Surrounded by mirages non existent entourages
Nowhere to roam
There's nothing left to call home
I'm thinking I found it, nirvana
Built it from my own life's trauma
Each day just gets hotter
Learned to live without the water

My head's on the ground again
A feeling too familar, but this time it stings
There's no one to call my friend
But the burden's feeling lighter without their things

I see on the road ahead
A person walking slowly as my vision fades
I wake on an empty bed
But I quickly take my leave and I refuse the aid
No one can hurt me if I'm walking all alone
They can't desert me if I've already turned to stone

(Lost in this desert and I'm looking for freedom
A small oasis or a moment of breathing)

I'm still alive but I can hear my body screaming
A broken core despite its pieces interweaving

Scorch the Sun, I'm burnin'
Freezing nights, I'm learnin' to fill my cup of emptiness
With tired limbs and bloody fists
On my own I'll make it
Blood and bone, I'll take it
By fighting the coldness inside
I'm leaving it all to the side
I'm learning to swallow my pride
I'm burnin'
I'm burnin'
I'm burnin'
I'm burning it all down with me
I'm burnin'
I'm burnin'
The only way I'll be set free

A body that feels foreign to me
Dissonance is soaring through me
Physical pain is nothing to the ache that's roaring through me
I'll do it
I'll do it
Anything to get me through it
How long can I fake through the agony I take?
At what point will I break as I fall into it?

I'm sick of asking if this path will make me
Who I'm supposed to be
In taking the path less traveled
Will the difference be the one I want to see?

Rip my heart out my chest
So I won't be possessed by the weakness that tries to shut me down
My movement has slowed
But I'll never let go
I'll just lift myself each time around

If I had known that it would be this way
I would've never put myself this far into the fray
Cause now I'm seeing everything I am today is just a product of
The existential price I paid
Now there's dust in the wind and my vision has dimmed
The sand has covered my skin
Is the end of the end?
I wipe it from my body, but it's starting to blend
And now the only option left is just to soak it in

If I was whole would I be more?
Or does the sum of my parts make me more?
How can I compete against this hold?
Cause when I turn up the heat I still feel cold
I still feel cold
I still feel cold
I still feel

My head's on the ground again
My body's not the same and I can't feel my skin
I wrap up my broken limbs and I stand up on my feet
But the whole world's spinning

(Lost in this desert and I'm looking for freedom
A small oasis or a moment of breathing)

I'm still alive but I can hear my body screaming
A broken core despite its pieces interweaving

I search and pick up the pieces all to my soul and I go and try to fill the gaps to fix all the holes
I don't know how someone like me can learn to be free
Pay the toll, when they were broken down before they had a chance to be whole
But living life isn't a life if you have nothing left to give
And living life isnt a life if you've burned all your reasons left to live

Scorch the Sun
Freezing nights (I'm slippin')
Losing sight of my will to fight
On my own..., all alone
It's ticking, counting down my fading light
I'm sick of picking myself up off of these burning sands below
I'm still alive but something died in me
Ages long ago
Now my stomach is sick
And I'm hearing the tick to the next time I fall and hit the ground
This time will be quick
No longer equipped to lift myself this time around
I've burned it all down as the flames surround me
And I fall onto the sand
Like a shot in the dark, I use my last spark
For one last deed before the end

My head's on the ground again
I try to lift my head
But I'm still sinking in
I lift up a shaky hand
And I say the only word I should've said back then

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