no fun at parties

Paper streamers
Music booming
Louder than my heart exploding
You come over
Your blue t-shirt
I wish I was normal
You show me off to your friends
I'm so confused I'm just pretending
And in my head I replay words so
I make sure I'm normal
I play with matches
Keeping you burnt out
Burning the disco down again
And it takes an ocean to remember words
Or just to put out the flames in my head
I'm no fun at parties I guess